it's madness...it's complex and as simple as the action of a couple of words

...this is what i need to come back to again and again, the thing that will always pull, keep some fascination and interest for me, the thing i need to acknowledge...the madness, the chaos, the meaninglessness and hell that is my life...
i don't think there's any need to change any of this because it's also the nature of this universe, why bother working against such forces?
the only way to make sense of any of this daily non-sense of mine is to somehow simply observe and then also know (this can be hard) when to act...
...just like the action of these words being placed here in this particular pattern on this page (looks ok eh?)
this is more than i've accomplished in a while, somehow these bit's of bits coming together out of the mystery and chaos of a life attempting to be lived, attempting to create, from this mind of mine...cohering, self organizing themselves into some new life (potential) here on this page.
well that's it again for now, just setting a bit more background context of what it is that i'm working with and creating from,
my particular 'complex'...while i try and keep it simple